imagine..
class committee:
jy, deanne, me.

LOL.
its so funny! =D

creds to jy and hx for writing so many names for me (:
scully get caught for that and all my surveys nullified?
hope that wun happen.

YAY!
back frm exams!



erm. still haf supp to go.



anw, thanks to all my lovely darlings who helped me do the survey, and more thanks to dearest van n hx! (haha the professional survey distributors).


ARGH!!! i cant believe that the stupid cat ignored me!!
HX was saying it doesnt understand chinese, must spk in malay.
FINE.
then the stupid stupid cat responded when she asked the cat how old it was u noe!
even when i was poking the cat for so long it doesnt even gif me a damn.
SO TSKFUL!!!!

had macs too. the one opp sch.
the hand dryer is crazy!!!




I WANT TO GO ZOO!
havent been there for so long alr =D
since SOME ppl ar~ still underaged
we will go zouk NEXT TIME!


i want to go back to sch to distribute more surveys! LOL
and gonna find my dear thane smtime. hmmm. (:



and yea ytd that superstar ppl,
kelly, wl, and jason (acc to van)since i nv see clearly
were filming near jupitor cafe.
she was so hyper sia, bt wats the big deal?
theyre only HUMAN BEINGS. nothing special.
CHEY!



PECON PAPER WAS V SCREWED.
I FORGOT TO DRAW BUSINESS CYCLE!!!!!!!!!!
i did not occur to me at all to draw. how ridiculous.
OGOSHHHHHH

I CUT MY HAIR!!
and got it straightened. now its so flat.
OMGOSH
OM MY GOSH!
its really bloody toot looking.

really FCUKING TOOT!!!!
nevermind.

it grows damn fast anyway.
ITD BETTER!!!ARGHHHH!!!



anyway here i am at home on VDAE.
VALENTINES DAY.
without presents.

i had presents in crescent eh.

i saw CY on concourse last thursday.
i wldnt haf noticed him even if he walked past a thousand times until HX went:

EH CHEEYANG EH! NI KAN NI KAN!

so i looked up, saw him talking w his frens..then suddenly turned his head right at my direction and smiled.
I WAVED. HE WAVED BACK.
ugh. i forgot to smile.
I ALWAYS FORGET TO.
ytd too, saw ex crescentian. she waved, and kinda smiled.
i have no expression then. ARGH!!!
must be too tired.


ya so after waving, he walked past, behind my friend [so extra!]
then no more eyecontact.
AGAIN
i want to look, but dun dare to. =/


SO THIS IS THE BLOODY SECOND TIME TO BUMP INTO HIM THIS SEMESTER!!!
or rather, third.
compared to first sem, at least weekly i would see him.
when did the school become so big??
anyway its the end of the sem already...
is this good or bad?
minusing the sch vacation, one year we only studied 7 and a half months.
how freaking short.
QUEEN!! jealous not? =D lol kidding kidding

yeah, after he walked out frm the concourse, i thought he left sch,
hurried after him, then gt on the bus.



[FYI i was talking to naz at the busstop. he WHO wrote that i lack courage to speak up. he WHO only noe me during that little interaction for one subject. he WHO was always so nervous about presenting and me always so heck care. ANYWAY. ANYONE WHO KNOWS ME WELL, meaning the whole class except SOME attitude ppl will know that THATS SO TOTALLY NOT ME. the moment i asked naz why he wrote that, he still did some stupid actions to demo my lack-of-courage. WAH LAO ITS BLOODY FCUKENING. that instant i really wanted to STAB him and say: HOW FCUKING WELL DO YOU KNOW ME LA CB! u stupid chauvinistic pedophile with a bad dress sense and a wire loose somewhere.]



so i boarded bus, he msged me asked why i was in formal,
which LT and time's my OP.
said i looked nice.
said he was walking arnd sch, and if im going home soon.
i said i just boarded the bus [gosh wrong timing!! tsk]
the he said..oh wells, thought could go back tgt.



LALALALA. thats what he said.
then after that not much talking too.
a few lines on msn.
just now din even talk to me, and he went off.


=|



come to think of it, im always the one talking less.
and the way he talked to my sis is like,,so playful kinda.
and he said to her :im gonna disturb u everyday during my hols.



HOW GREAT!



BYE BYE CONFESSION.
vdae eve
vdae
19 FEB then??



this horoscope reading from cleo on <3 for me:

the guy in question from last month[dec] will reappear[jan].
but as he wun be ready till FEB, play it cool. in case u embarass yourself arnd the 19, the guy will still want you.

the first part came true la. RIGHT on 1st JAN he first initiated to msg on frenster.

LOL van's horoscope reading partly came true too.

scully if i say i like him on 19th[sun], then see him tmr, exam day.....



he distracted me the first maths exam.
not a second time now.



XINHAO just asked if he could ask me out after exams.
making it sound like a big deal.
at night then he could have the car he says.
L O L




HAPPY VDAE TO ALL SINGLETONS!!!


great that ur bro came back, bestie. REJOICE!! =D
happy for you.



seriously on hiatus now till hols.

I AM IN REAL NEED OF A NEW PHONE!


i tend to think v negatively of myself
and find that im nt compatible with whoever whoever.
pei bu shang ren jia.

yeaps.
sensitivity isnt bad what.
i admit i think too much.
but, its also a fact,
im only analysing more than necessary and making myself more depressed
HAHAHA.


not funny.



he didnt entertain me just now.
fine that was arnd dinner time.
he just msged me a few mins ago.
saying smth like:
hey gal, help me thank your friend for the code! it works! so happy =D
i replied: dun think he[lipchung] noes i gave it to smone else. glad it works! hah now you dun hafta retake hahah!
he replied: =D





seee what is this. frm msging me day till night and sometimes asking me to entertain him....
to NOW only contact me whenever necessary only. and with a matter-of-factly boring tone.



thanks arr, even though i know we are all BUSY.
im trying to sound lively here OKAY.
lose interest lose interest la whatever crap rubbish you.



ytd i refused to gif him my blog link.
HOW CAN I GIVE HIM?!



anyway thanks to kei for listening to me =))
and being so supportive.
decided to let that CY know what i feel on vdae.
then. once or never.




argh i feel darn bad to lipchung.
how to repay him? i gave his codes to CY.
he didnt noe i wld gif it to someone else, and has to sms me to get my email, and cut n paste it [my request].
sucha nice soul.



eh bestie, bring me clubbing during hols kae?
im such a goodie holy soul la. =D

i miss him
I MISS HIM.
I MISS HIM!!!


but cant tell him.
he might find me despo.
BOOBOOBOO.


-yawns

eri is sad.
=(
very very utterly sad.
slept..woke up at 4am
suddenly thought of him and started crying.
and became very tired so i overslept by 2 hrs.

i kinda promised myself that id never cry because of anyone long ago.

its actually not a big deal,
but so hurtful.
yet i actually did it before to him. which wasnt deliberate la of cos.
he purposely did that.
so confusing.
told a few babes about it..diff opinions.
but i still want to try to keep it going...
im trying to like the things he like.
guess we're quite different.

i shld not keep my phone on all night le.
it wasnt my habit in the first place.

anyway. failed my integration test by 1 mark.
lol. not bad for one night of study only.
lunch in sch, nv bring wallet again. =/
hx offered to treat me haha but i think its better not to owe anyone.
starting to feel bad cos now im kinda owing him something. in return?
felt like crying in the canteen. 2nd time in sch alr.
darling van peied me to that comic shop.
treated me haha. read-ed, talked abt RR =D aiyo~
hope that something good comes out of it hahaha.
I SAW DESMOND! hahah i still prefer the 08 wan.
and found out that jeff's info..



its actually true.
so so sooo saddening



YTD,
went IT school! w kat. lol
hahaha. big deal.
school so VERY terribly big. but darn gd comps, i think.
yayyay met xh and gera and MEL ar very extra
lol
kinda nice to see him after sucha long while too.

eri no naka ga sukimashita~
learnt in jap lesson. why must they be so formal? so NOT me lor.
eri hara ga hetta yo!
hungry alr.

laters ;)