i have decided to give up on cy.
if you are reading this, i suppose you should be happy.
right?




-yawns




anyway this morning i woke up at 6AM!!!
bloody hell. omg how can i do sucha stupid thing.
i thought i heard my alarm (or was that a dream?) or my mum calling me (she used to do that during sec sch).
SO I SUPPOSE IT WAS ACTUALLY NONE.
cos my mum opened the door, TO WAKE MY SISTER! NOT ME!!!
then after i washed up and looked at the clock. 6.20am.
i thought i'll hafta reach sch in 2 hours time, meaning 8am.
so i rushed and rushed.
halfway on 131 my 7.35am alarm rang.
i thought theres smth wrong with my phone cos im outside already and why my alarm went off again.
7.50am i was panicking, waiting for 23, afraid that i'll miss the OB test.




when i boarded 23 i started doing my maths.
realised how early i am.
felt so totally stupid sia.
then went to inter to buy concession.
then back to tp.



there was this golden haired boy (jordan that kinda)
hes such a joke.
i saw him alighting a cab, then i entered level 1 frm the outside, alone.
i heard a loud sound behind and whirled around to see that goldie had tripped on the hump(AND FELL!) at the same entrance which i came in from.
then we waited for a lift, me and him only.
i tell you, he is totally amusing.
he went in the empty lift first, walked the perimeter of the lift clockwise direction, then realised that the buttons werent there.
he then VERY quickly turned to the other side, hahaha i wanted to burst out laughing.
we alighted at the same level, and his face looked so so lost.
tsk tsk tsk.




then i waited outside the tut room frm 9.11am.
sat with my legs stretched out. a girl almost tripped over hahha.
cant fold my legs also cos will zao geng hahha.
stanley walked past me twice. wearing green!!
hes so like a cute little boy hahaha. im no pedophile!
hmmm how come xy's frens are everywhere sia?
lessons ended TOO early today, was at a loss.
checked up on ccn location. the participation of year 2s is miserable.
then van pei-ed me till my cds.
after that when i was crossing the bridge i saw someone in brown walking at my direction.
of cos, i cant see clearly until that person was closer.
HA HA HA.
i tried to smile, but so difficult. my lips felt very heavy. lol.
then he smiled back.
let me say this again :
he looks totally evil!



when i reached home, i realised that the clock had stopped at 8.01am.
so damn lousy

im tormented. subtly.
does that make sense?



BTW before i start how come luqman knows about my fetish for _____.
hahha anyway. its not. im intrigued. thats all.
a little more attention on the aliens in our class.
hahhaha kidding. but if YOU have been here, please make ur presence known.



anyway im here to point out some things that i have abhored, and will go on detesting for the rest of life.




#1____________________
the use of silly language.
and whats that?
words that cant be found in the dictionary and they irk me to no end.
BAO BEI! DEAR DEAR! (not that im jealous of couples)
moiiiii LaRhXxXxX i lUrF/mIsHh Euuuuu*...
et cetera et cetera with all those meaningless designs using every symbol that u can find on a keyboard flying all over the place.
im not against different variations of possible spellings but please..
TAKE NOTE OF GRAMMER AND TENSES AT THE LEAST.
its the only proof that you havent wasted all ur life being educated..using english.
and what are the lecturers doing?
atrociously atrocious.
but thats understandable..
they apparently focused TOO much on the contents taught and therefore...
zero = jiro
bad debts = baghdad
tableau = (sounds like) gabriel.. the way he pronounces it.





#2____________________
i dont like hollaback girls.
hmmm. i remember hearing frm the radio..they are the people who talk behind other ppl's back, but pretend to be perfectly alright infront of them.
hahhaaha so like OLIBIA. =green monster.
actually that was more of turquoise la.
insulting us behind our backs is totally fine.
renmin finds it tragic and find them pitiful ahahhaha.
then these people will act all cheerful and friendly when some one-on-one situation occurs to avoid feeling awkward, WHEN THE WHOLE WORLD KNOWS THAT THEY CANT SEE EYE TO EYE.
if you dont like someone, say so.
SAY SO LOUDLY. BE PROUD TO.
its never myself to keep quiet when someone is openly antagonising me.
cb that reminds me. i'll have to bear with it for this bloody sem. damn.
i miss the thrill of picking a fight with people.
verbally. and physically ahahhaha.
once i start i dont wanna stop. muahahha.
im not saying its not good to start finding problems with me.
i dont get mad. i get even. so, bring it on.
to those who speaks softly, get a life.




#3____________________
i dont like, or rather, HATE STUPID people.
people who dont talk sense.
people who are not knowlegeable.
well, those cant be defined clearly.
_________________________________
okay let me change that.
when i ask a question, please identify all possibilties of why i am asking and UNDERSTAND THEM, THEN, FIGURE OUT THE MAIN POINT OF THE QNS(FOR CHRISTS SAKE), (OR WHY ELSE WHOULD I ASK, RIGHT!).
NEXT, IF YOU DONT KNOW THE ANSWER, DONT PRETEND THAT YOU DO.
everything thats gonna come out of your mouth, please let it go thru ur brain once more. see if it makes sense and more importantly, if it answers the given question.
its exasperating talking sense with you (MUCH LESS DEBATE COS YOU ARE NOT WORTH MY ENERGY) cause theres a language and understanding barrier YOU KNOW. communication breakdown. ben dan! if YOU have noticed, i had stopped talking to you abruptly during a conversation a few times before. YOU KNOW WHY, SMARTY? have you ever noticed tt THAT is a super big prob that will cost you your friends? (close friends, if you have, that is)
SADLY, stupid people do not know that they are stupid.
if you have the inability to think twice, or feel empathy, or read between the lines(duh people are not as dense as you, ya know), or boasts of no EQ..u are useless.
some people who are not sensitive enough, not observant enough, not sharp enough...
should just..die off.
STUPID PEOPLE please reflect on that, especially if you are not a sensitive person or a deep thinker. if you dont know what you are, ask me. or ask the ppl around you. truth hurts, i know. hahha




i find that there are different categories of stupidness.
1* bimbo-stupid .= those who whine all day, being vain,and getting the boys to everything instead of moving their own limbs and totally have no knowledge of anything on self-improvement, or anything pertaining to their own body. please la. know how your body works in the least?




2* childishly stupid. ppl who make a decision to fear or reject something even before understanding it or trying it out. HOW OLD ARE U ALREADY?! can be smth simple like just refusing to eat vegs, or refusing to exercise just because he/she thinks that the muscle would cause him/her to look fatter. (that reminds me, read the point below)




3* STUPIDLY STUPID. some fatty said tt to me: "eat so much watermelon wont get fat meh." are u dumb or are u dumb? please check out the nutritional contents of a fruit. USE UR BRAINS MAN! someone also said tt she had wrapped her upper arm with some _____ a long time hoping itll slim down. i told her to exercise..but.. (REFER ABOVE). WTF?




if you have read frm the begginning till here, thanks.

YAWNS


aiya. i wanted to see daniel today de.
was LOOKING FORWARD to that you know.. ahhaha
even though i dont know him at all, HE just intrigues me.
no idea why.
hmmm, or isit because he looks like a bad guy?
he looks evil to me. his face.
and that wasnt relevant to what i wore today.
just put on a top that i hadnt wear for the past decade...
and topped it off with the wahlao-so-difficult-to-match necklace(?!) that was so so hard to match that its the first time its worn.




ponned psy lec today..and was late.
hmmmm. then apel.
ARGH. i feel very retarded today.
totally language and verbally impaired. so weird.
and that CCN discussion didnt make progress.
please dont count on me for anything regarding food because i never ever prepared any type of cuisine in my whole life less the pathetic attempt during sec2 home econs.
pui pui pui. yucks bad memories.
that home econ tcr was a stupid crazy maniac who loves to holler at us and think that the WHOLE BLOODY KITCHEN is her own property. curses.
ar ya so...please understand that i didnt say much..regarding this FOOD issues.



then van and all the mentors~~
eh HOW COME KENNETH DIDNT GO?!
mentors went off for some FREE lunch, and the saint JIEYI accompanied me thru my 1 hr break and also frantically helped me looked for the CCN form. thanks babe!
kenneth...forget it. stupid sia. die die also dowan to give us his pw.
tsk tsk
PSY tut today...actually i felt so weird today that i wasnt sure i was going to right class at the right timing..
i stood at the door scanning for ppl whom ive seen before..
(haha actually this is fruitless cos i dun even try to remember them)
then i saw the cy-lookalike...
haha



erm. what happened ytd??
shit i forgot. amnesia =(
thus this entry is shortened.



i shall bring my sis along to CCN.
wahahhaha. this time no bf to interrupt.
MUAHAHAHHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHA.
im not planning anything bad.
=D

hello people.
3 weeks have officially passed.
good things, bad things.
now we shall look forward to ccn =)

had a lot in my mind, but dun feel like saying already.
or..i shall be random then.



maggots. very fake. i was disgusted for arnd 4 hrs.
hmmm..i miss my eyecandies loads.
was happy that he msged me in tcc and for a while afterwards.
then now im feel v neglected.




oh ya oh ya.
was in the same bus wit jordan ytd.
sm idiotic car honked at him while he was trying to cross the road.
awwwwwwww.
how can they do this to a cute litle boy?!
hahahhaha.
come to think of it hes actually older than me.



and that extra guy during OB was actually xy's friend?
hmmm. i was thinking he looks familiar...
kinda cute. bt not my type. lol.



typical school dreading thing coming up again.
siansation.
-yawns
its so tiring to miss someone.
and multply that by a few more times for other people..